وَلَقَدْ كُنتُمْ تَمَنَّوْنَ ٱلْمَوْتَ مِن قَبْلِ أَن تَلْقَوْهُ فَقَدْ رَأَيْتُمُوهُ وَأَنتُمْ تَنظُرُونَ ١٤٣
And you had certainly wished for martyrdom before you encountered it, and you have [now] seen it [before you] while you were looking on.
Aal-i-Imraan · The Family of Imraan